A Story About the Body
The young composer, working that summer at an artist's colony, had
watched her for a week. She was Japanese, a painter, almost sixty, and
he thought he was in love with her. He loved her work, and her work
was like the way she moved her body, used her hands, looked at him
directly when she made amused and considered answers to his questions.
One night, walking back from a concert, they came to her door and she
turned to him and said, "I think you would like to have me. I would
like that too, but I must tell you that I have had a double
mastectomy," and when he didn't understand, "I've lost both my
breasts." The radiance he had carried around in his belly and chest
cavity - like music - withered very quickly, and he made himself look
at her when he said, "I'm sorry. I don't think I could." He walked
back to his own cabin through the pines, and in the morning he found a
small blue bowl on the porch outside his door. It looked to be full of
rose petals, but he found when he picked it up that the rose petals
were on top; the rest of the bowl - she must have swept them from the
corners of her studio - was full of dead bees. ~ Robert Hass
watched her for a week. She was Japanese, a painter, almost sixty, and
he thought he was in love with her. He loved her work, and her work
was like the way she moved her body, used her hands, looked at him
directly when she made amused and considered answers to his questions.
One night, walking back from a concert, they came to her door and she
turned to him and said, "I think you would like to have me. I would
like that too, but I must tell you that I have had a double
mastectomy," and when he didn't understand, "I've lost both my
breasts." The radiance he had carried around in his belly and chest
cavity - like music - withered very quickly, and he made himself look
at her when he said, "I'm sorry. I don't think I could." He walked
back to his own cabin through the pines, and in the morning he found a
small blue bowl on the porch outside his door. It looked to be full of
rose petals, but he found when he picked it up that the rose petals
were on top; the rest of the bowl - she must have swept them from the
corners of her studio - was full of dead bees. ~ Robert Hass